Leg Days…

This week, I started running. Fairly late into the season, but I thought after a good few weeks of hitting the pool I thought I was ready to push myself. Spoilers, I was sorely wrong.

Early in the week I started with an easy 500 metre jog. Literally felt like nothing, I think I would be able to sprint it if I could. However exercise to me is more about speed; endurance is just as important as speed itself, sometimes it’s not about outrunning your time but more of being able to go farther at a pace. A day later in the morning, I tried a one kilometre run. For people who are inclined for imperial units of measurement, it’s about 0.6 of a mile. This time I decide to push myself a bit harder. I have to admit, I’m out of shape and I felt a bit of fatigue right up to the end. Yesterday, I completed a distance of 2 km. Not much of a feat but more like muscle memory, I’m still feeling it up to this morning. I’ve been known to be physically aggressive with my own body when it comes to fitness but I know this is the tip of the iceberg.

No doubt I want to live a bit healthier on a budget, but the problem is I’m not a health nut. I don’t feel automatically motivated to exercise yet I do want to be more and do more than sitting for extended periods of time. With much consideration, I think I’m going to dedicate an hour a day minimum for physical fitness. Even at the end of the year and through into 2015, I want to be healthier. No longer this “I want to try” business. It’s been a constant for me over the summer to not exercise and now with just under two weeks of summer, it’s now all down to pushing it to the end of the year. Rain or shine, to and through the limit.

Right now, it’s a matter of consistency and variation. So far lots of cardio from swimming and running, weight training is still out of the question. A gym membership is beyond my budget, sticking to push ups would only last for a good while. I could only wish I had some weights.


Everything hurts, I’ll keep going.

I won’t bring up much of my personal life on here, but I can hint it hurts a lot and it will scar me as long as I remember. The hardest part is moving on from it. It’s been so long since I felt like this, it was years before I started this blog. The last time seems less painful than it is now, hopefully it will numb. Anyone who has opened their heart and had it hurt, I can really understand your pain.

But we can never change the past, we can only learn from them and do better in the future. No matter how much pain induced for that very moment, the future will hopefully make it go away. The past few days, I tried to keep my mind distracted from old memories. Though successful, it’s tiresome but it numbs well. That’s how it is with me. Being distracted is pretty tough, music and video games can only keep me well diverted until I get bored. The quest for employment is still ongoing, though I kind of feel like I don’t want to do this anymore. Just holding on even though the job market is pretty terrible under my circumstances.

Even though the sun out and puffy clouds float, a storm is raining down on me. I want to try and stay positive even when things go bad. When I can’t be, I just let out the pain. Everyone has a way to relieve pain, I do my best in my own way – distractions. Anything to relieve the thoughts in my head and numb the pain I’m going through. I don’t feel envious of those who can feel nothing. I just wish I had that kind of willpower to turn it off and get on with my life.

Until I am over these emotions and until next time my fellow readers, stay positive out there. Feel free to drop a comment of kind words and positive motivation.

Recovery over, time to run like crazy!

Oh man, when I woke up today; it was a relief. Yesterday I was aching in pain for the whole day from sunrise to sunset. Though, I do feel I have stronger legs after tearing them up the day before; I still have a bit of pain on my calf. I tried running on it today and it wasn’t so bad, I got in about 1.6 km which is still pretty good for a guy wincing in pain on every other step. I pretty confident once I heal up, I got that 1.5 in the bag. Just need 0.9 more and to keep pace, my pacing has been pretty fast but it’s at a comfortable rate that I’m not going to tired out so fast.

The whole week you might have noticed I’ve been posting up more than usual. I’m trying to cut back on playing videos once again and seems like the hardest task is to keep busy. So for now, blogging and running are the ways to go. I woke up just as the sun came up today and when for that nice run and went to bolster my food supply with some cereal. I’m trying to go on a carb diet of grains and minimal protein. Though I should really add more protein for optimal results.  Back in the day, I wasn’t really health conscious. Guess it’s a price for growing up. The meds must be really kicking in since I’m pretty focused all day and I’ve been trying to get as much done as possible. Like I’ve been contemplating this one idea. Well, it’s more of a question.

This summer it’s been a hassle for me to find shorts considering I rarely buy them. My closet is just filled with jeans, t-shirts and sweaters (my jacket too, but that’s on a hook than in the closet). The couple pairs of pants I have that’s not jeans are cargo pants. To put to bluntly, they see more action than my jeans. I wear them everywhere since it’s so versatile. With 6 pockets of varying sizes, you can’t really go wrong. Don’t believe me? I once carried a 6 inch sub sandwich, my keys, wallet, cell phone, a small notebook, small bag of chips, pen, and a CD. By definition, cargo pants is to a purse. So why can’t cargo pants be fashionable. Of course they come in the shorts variety, but I mean in terms of a trend. It comes in handy when you need pockets and I just find pockets in jeans usually doesn’t get the job done or they would rip. And hey while we’re at it, why not a cargo skirt for the ladies? Screw the purse, wear a cargo skirt. You can store your wallet, make-up, keys, drink, toiletries, paper/notebook, pen, phone, and mace right on you. Also it leaves your hands free to do whatever you please. Sure it might sound stupid, but cargo pants is the one thing I love to wear because of that portability factor. 

While we’re on the topic of of military wear, why not have a jacket or vest rather than carry a briefcase around. It’s like cargo pants, but for your chest! Ever want to sit on the couch with a beer, chips and the remote but you only have 2 hands? Cargo vest! Bringing a metal water bottle for your on the go need? Hang it off your cargo vest while you carry 2 more bottles. You’re a construction work and you don’t have space on your tool belt, what do you do? Cargo vest! Getting stabbed but your personal weapon is on your belt or purse? No problem, slip it in your cargo vest and whip it out and beat the guy senseless with your awesomeness. Don’t need that backpack kids – cargo vest!

Oh, that last week of August will be pretty much the pinnacle of my summer since I’m going to my old high school to get a reference for my application. After that, I need one more and it’s kind of hard to fit such a 5 year requirement. I’m not going to give up, I’m going to find that one person that would fit. Pretty much, I have nothing planned until then so I might just exercise and blog. But I know my notebook is going to be used more vigorously until then.

Beyond blogging and jogging, I spent some time fixing up my site a bit. Just merging categories and making a new one. So now there’s a place for reviews and such. I’m bound to do them anyways so I might as well open it up and let people take a look. Don’t expect a specific kind of review like a game or something else, but at least it’s a little diversion. I’m going to still be tinkering with my WordPress site, so be ready for some minor changes. I’m working on learning the Dashboard settings and see if I can change it up to something I’m content on. Speaking of WordPress, I’ve been adding tags to my subscription page. All this time I’ve been going to tags to look up stuff while I had this to just click and see. It’s a pretty lengthy list and I think I prefer the tags page since I have to keep scrolling for stuff and the scrolling is pretty laggy since it loads large chunks. No matter, I’m going to try and get working on those settings!

Feel free to comment and question. I will definitely try to respond.