Day 4 – Dream Job


Surely every child had dreams and aspirations for their careers. Over time those dreams seem to be replaced with more realistic dreams and compromises.

As a child, I went for the really typical choices. At first I wanted to be a cop, this was like around primary school where you can dress up and run around. It was a weird time since our teacher didn’t allow toy guns nor pointing a finger around like a gun. That dream (because of the teacher) died pretty quick. When I was older I actually thought about it; however realizing my city isn’t a nice and polite place for police, I moved on quickly.

Sometime later but still in primary school, I desired to be an astronaut. Something about being up there floating is kind of cool and exciting. Back then I had the illusion of space travel from Star Trek that we ride on fast ships and having cool gadgets and gizmos to help along the adventure. Unfortunately that’s not the case, however in the back of my mind ever since high school I’ve had an interest in being a colonist of a distant world. I would like to be the idea of being on the frontier where I could be the very few people to see a far away world with my very own eyes.

In high school, I started to look into jobs and career paths which would suit my values in a job and career. For high school, I tried to do a lot with learning history. As boring as learning western history, it made me realize a lot of people died in the name of land and country. Though some were selfless in helping others, some died loyal to a cause. To me I guess they embodied some of the values I wanted in my life. As dangerous as the military sounded at the time, I wanted to join the military as a career path at the time. However obligations held me down to schooling so I carried away from something that seemed so right at the time.

Now closer to today and now, what do I want to do and what am I qualified to do? I know for sure the past decade and more I have been playing video games. Though unprofessionally and not for sport, I think there should be something in there that should merit me in something that has video games involved. I wouldn’t mind play testing games for a living, streaming video games or even making my YouTube channel somehow pay for my expenses. All three are a long stretch but I have little to no determination to earn money through view counts. As amazing an idea sounds, I am limited to my equipment and services provided to me.

Since high school as I said before, I would like to seek out and opportunity with the military and even if it’s just a decade or a life long commitment. I’m not sure how I would carry it out and where it will take me, but I know as long as I put some effort in I could find it rewarding in helping other.

Tomorrow is always a brand new day and a field of new  opportunities. All I have to do is dig up the entire field for something I want to do in this world.


“Two wrongs make a right”–We shall see…

Double timing my life is a change. For the first part, it’s not the double time I’m use to and secondly, too much brain usage that when I think it’s starting to hurt. Seem like I’m always trying to get everything together just to have it not work or explode in my face and yet everyone is all like “mix a and b together and get a job” while I’m all like “a and b does not get a job, it makes me super sad because it all involves doing stuff I would not morally want to do.” Yeah I know it’s a run on sentence, but I’m freaking out and my life is screeching to a miserable wall of doom.

It could be an episode I’m going through or just forgetting my medication; speaking of which, I totally forgot about those bits. Still, turbulent times in my life because it doesn’t work the way I want it and it sucks due to that fact. But at least it doesn’t suck as U.S. election, see what I did there? Hardly following the whole big American deal which is not the $4.99 special at the local sandwich shop, from what I get it’s between Obama and Romney. I’m Canadian so I can’t help you pick one, but I can give you some advice in terms of making social choices. This goes for the election or if you’re not picking a dude to run a country, just stuff to consider and do in life. Starting with pick the choices which helps minorities especially those minorities which can enrich society in general. I know abortion and LGBT issues are pretty big in some parts of the world and even at home. My opinion is abortion is a good thing considering we have 7 billion Homos (…Sapien) running about and the Earth has a butt-ton of synthetic carcinogens and lots of social problems which would make me feel uncomfortable knowing children are living in a world where we and our parents and our parents’ parents trashed like we didn’t own it. I myself cannot personally associate with the LGBT community but having the rights and choices to do what they want should be at least equal considering that we did that to women and now we have a lot more great things to look forward to like feminism and the vote. If you can’t do that, be more conscious about the environment and stuff to help people you will never meet; those people I’m talking about are the people who will be here when we all die. If it’s stuff to get the environment to be cleaner and undo all the bad stuff we’ve done, then it’s pretty good. With all the technology running around, make sure you look into those things because it may sound great but we could totally bone ourselves since it may require more energy in than the awesome stuff out. They’re just a few examples, but it’s just few of a lot of issues. I don’t know who’s promising who, but you guys know so make the right choice on the first try unlike the last time you voted the same fail that put you into a long quagmire.

Speaking of a long quagmire, Star Trek Online’s end game grinding. Hooray, this time I won’t drone on. I’m focusing on grinding my Omega space set after getting the last piece of the MACO space set just on Saturday. The Omega space set to me is the optional set since it only boost flight and turn speeds mostly. With my ships mostly running on Aegis or mission space sets like the Breen or the Jem’Hadar. Alongside gathering the prototype items to get them, I’m working on making a phaser weapon set that is alternate to the antiproton stuff I have on it now. I’m doing it because I have a feeling as a cosmetic thing, I may want the Sao Paulo class for it’s Quad Heavy Phaser Cannon. Then just pile on the awesomeness of phaser cannons like what I did with the antiproton cannons. After I get my Transwarp Computer module, I’ll consider it as my next time consuming project in STO.

Now back to my job hunt…ugh, jobs…ugh, capitalism…ugh, society making my life rough…

Up goes the rollercoaster…

I’m on a really nice winning streak the last few weeks that I’m ecstatic that there are signs for good things to come. Right now, I might be employed within 6 months; maybe more depending on the paperwork that has to be done. I’m working on starting that airsoft hobby I’ve been thinking about since I was like 17 or 18, Also, I’m going to have an anniversary for something.

More largely, I’m rooting for the job and the hobby because it’s a 3 year wait and I’m now pretty excited about it. So I’m starting to rev up my dietary requirements so I can exercise my butt off from now until I’m in and ready to play. Bother require exercise so I’m going to be working double for both. Also I’m kind of stepping out of my comfort zone on airsoft.

It’s more of an unusual hobby from what I normally would call hobbies so I’m pretty excited about getting into it. I’m trying to educate myself as much as possible so I can make informed decisions about what I can to buy in terms of equipment. Though I would like wise advice on it especially any players in and around Toronto. Just reading over all this stuff makes me want to play a bit more and along with my job, it’s going to be more of a training aid as well. When all goes well, I’m going to be stuck in the best rut I’ve ever had in my entire life.

I read a recent message from my old employer on this hiring freeze and I’m pretty stoked that I might have a slot sometime in the near future. I just have to push forward, grab it by the throat and demand for 100% adrenaline of awesomeness. Maybe I’ll puke, maybe not…that’s my body’s decision to make.

Time to start the day with some reading and an armful of push-ups. So if you guys have any advice on airsoft, tips, tricks or locations to play; feel free to leave a comment. Peace out folks!