Finally we’re at the end of this challenge, I must admit I missed a day and overshot the deadline by a month. Regardless, we are here with the 30th day which also happens to land on Christmas. So happy holidays and hope you are with friends or doing something to keep the day rolling.
At the moment, I think my blog is going to follow me through different moods and hobbies in the future. I have nothing really set up but as things change and how I feel, I will slowly document them in this follow. Of course for all you that have been here and are joining in, it’s going to be a gradual change. Topics will jump around and depending how I feel, it could be a happy post or sad post; maybe even an angry post to even things out!
These couple months have been kind of a test to see if you guys like to have random topics. If you guys like it, let me know in the comments what topics I should cover.
Future of this blog is in our hands, we can both shape it together. For those long time readers, thank you for dropping in and checking in. For those new to this space, welcome and don’t mind the clutter!
Around year 2 of my blog, I kept a long list of topics on a text file. Over the the past 3 years since, I have probably went back and forth on the text file. Out of all the topics in the file, I’ve wrote about 40 posts on a few topics. If you know the immensity of topics, it would dwarf the 40-ish posts. As much as I like to be organized, this blog has turned from gaming to just thoughts and opinions. As much as I like to cover games, I do have a YouTube channel for the very purpose. The hardest part to keep it personal without getting too personal because of the things I have to keep to myself and just the general “stranger danger” of the net. As much as I like you guys to know more about me, there are things best left a mystery.
Back to the list.txt file, do I still have it? Yes I do, sometimes I read through it and eliminating things I don’t want to talk about and adding more to it. In the past few years, I have been more inclined to read through it than just writing about them. I’ve drafted a few posts but nothing I have really felt ready to publish. At first it was a good idea to have some topics ready to go but it felt less organic. Now it has turned into an archive of things I would like to talk about rather than documenting things I would feel comfortable to voice a comment towards. I have spent the last few years just riffing off my own mind. Every post is a spontaneous post. It feels more comfortable that way.
Goes to show not everything will benefit from order and organization. A bit of chaos can go a long way.
It’s kind of hard to think of an embarrassing moment in my life worth sharing; either they’re too personal or way too embarrassing to share. Everyone’s threshold for embarrassment is different. However I do have something to share while we’re on the topic of embarrassment.
Most commonly I get embarrassed when in conversation with someone and the topic leads into territory where I cannot necessarily contribute to the conversation. I do like the occasional banter but there are times when someone mouths off into a zone where I feel uncomfortable to add, in the end I have no way of backing up or continue forward. Recently it has happened well more than a few times and I feel like I have little to no information to provide so I do my best to provide a generic and neutral answer.
Conversations as great as they are, sometimes turns into more of an intellectual sword fight than small talk. As much as I like both, I don’t really like one turning into the other. My brain is not a wikipedia, nor a reddit. My brain is my own and I choose what I need when I need it. So I am sorry to those strangers I’ve encountered I could’ve give you a straight answer. Sometimes I can’t really give you an opinion because I don’t know or I can’t tell you because of other reasons, that is how life works and I hope it doesn’t offend you.
As I am writing this, I am a bit hungover from a long night talking about relationship stuff. Ironically, today’s blog post about what I find attractive. In my past, I have learned a lot about people. Mainly people aren’t perfect; as much as you can expect someone to be at the state of perfection, there will always be flaws. Little bits that I would have to live with, living with it will be my compromise. As much this will turn many eligible women away, here I go to set it all down in words.
I look at attraction like a photograph and the main rule for photography, the rule of thirds. In rule is a guideline which places the subject in two thirds; in many ways, someone’s attractiveness can be divided in thirds. The first being compromises; she can have certain traits to an extent where I can still find it tolerable. To me, I think I would settle for someone wanting to be attached for the long term. As long term relationships go, it would just solidify my idea of how patient she can be with me. She can be vain at times, I’ve met girls who were obsessive and some not so into their beauty; this will be tough to keep in check but I will be willing to try.
With a third aside for flaws, the next two focus on looks and personality. “What does she look like?” My female readers out there will be relieved to hear, I am pretty accepting to how the right girl in my life would look. She can have any colour hair as long as she can wear it well. I do prefer the pale persuasion. Oh, and her body; definitely a healthy and eating body. As much as I can admit I like a slim woman, I would like her to be able to eat. Definitely dinner dates are in my future. Piercings, tats, smokers, drinkers? I’m open to the idea of her to having tats and sensible piercings, nothing too ridiculous but the only way I would know if I actually met her. As for smokers and drinkers, I find smokers a bit of turn off. Drinking I might be on the fence about because I like someone who can socially drink but I would like her to be non-alcoholic since I do try to be the same.
The second and last third of what I find someone attractive. Main point, lady with personality. Someone I can have a converse with, someone I feel comfortable around. Someone who can keep me in place because I’m usually all over the place. Someone with the same honest and respectful values as I do. She’s got an ear for music I can enjoy as well into music I like, she doesn’t have to like my music but at least consider it tolerable. I’m a bit weird and dorky, or so I’ve heard. She’s got to deal with that bit of me. I’m stubborn to change but willing to change if I feel good about it. She will need the patience to really handle my problems for I, too, am a flawed person.
Will I ever find the right woman? Perhaps not, but I’m an optimistic dreamer when it comes to my personal life. I’ll find her, hopefully one day.
I’ve been really good with maintaining my gaming habits. For the past few years, it’s been kind of trying going from playing for half a day to just only a few hours a day with a maximum of just 24 hours in the week.
Though I don’t account for every minute of it, I do my best to limit myself to just a few hours a day. It’s either spent playing or recording video and editing. To be honest, making it feel like a bit of work is helpful since it’s turning me away from video games while letting me continue to play. However there are still days where I would go the entire day playing video games rather than doing something productive or recording. I’m still on the fence whether I have succeeded or failed; only time will tell.
Aside from the addictive qualities in my life, I would say a have some common habits like procrastination, junk food connoisseur,and a bit of a sugar fiend.
Happiness is a hard emotion to keep. The hardest emotion to maintain for me, I’m usually borderline happy and sad which we will cover next post. Some people live with an abundance of happiness and which to them I say I wish I had just a fraction of it.
Happiness to me comes and goes, I wish it would stay longer. There has been small moments over the past half decade. The recent was finally bring employed; not gainfully, but at least employed. It’s not much of a happy moment but a small sigh of relief.
The last time I was blissfully happy was when I took a trip to the US. It was just a series of trips I took as a way to break away from life. While I was there, I was able to see Paramore in concert. I have listened to ttheir ever since I was teenager and here I was in my 20’s listening and headbanging live to their music. In those moments during my trip, I was very happy and content.
It seems the past decade has given me more happiness than the rest of my life. Either I honestly don’t remember or I had a terrible childhood. Unfortunate, but it is the life I am given.
I am not a photographer nor am I a photogenic person. The stubbornness in me fairly defeats day 18 of the challenge, a challenge which is slowly slipping away. I must apologize since I have professional dealings happening all over this week and this weekend. Regardless, I would like to complete since we are just 11 posts away!
So onward to day 19, favourite movies. Surprisingly when people ask me my favourites in movies, I’m into several genres but only a few films stand out to me. Awhile back, I gained a bit of interest into Disney movies, in general I like the storytelling and the positive innocence of all the stories. Notably in films like Toy Story 3 which made me feel something deep inside.
Recently there are a few movies that have stood out to me because I enjoyed myself while I was at the theatre. Chappie was an interesting look at the relationship between the created and creator. Mockingjay Part 2 for me was to complete the entire movie series, though I disliked how they separated the last book. I saw Wall-E in the comfort of my own home, as well as Frozen; both were expectant quality works from Pixar. The Martian was to a nice diversion; I wasn’t very interested into a survival drama, but it was a nice insight to how we as a species might be living on Mars.
Aside from recent releases, I’ve seen the two direct-to-DVD Stargate films, Continuum and Ark Of Truth, which tie up the two series arcs if not the series. I’ve seen documentaries ranging from topics like North Korea, 3D printed firearms, and conspiracies.
I don’t have a definitive movie or film because I guess I’m the sum of all my experiences and learning.
If you have any recommendations, please feel free to leave a comment here or send me a message on Twitter.