Last week, I’ve wrote about what goes on in my head when I’m depressed. Depression is also one of the comorbidities with ADHD, just one more thing to make mental health even more complicated. The mind is just a wonderful and immensely messy medium.
In some ways mental health is both a good and bad topic. It’s not just identifying disorders and disabilities but to really give someone closure and inclusion to their problems. It gives everyone the “now I know what to do” strength and the “I am not alone” peace. Rest in peace my doctor who gave me 5+ years of service, he helped me identify who I am mentally. I came in as a sad young adult and over time I’ve came to accept it. A lot has come in terms of researching mental health ever since I self-identified. However there is much more to do to find cures rather than fix symptoms.
Like in my last post, I want to those who identify as “normal” and without any mental illness to really understand the world I live in. Also give context for others to really relate back to how I am or what I feel.
So what does having ADHD feel like? ADHD is…
- Going out always involves doing something random. The Big Bang Theory has a neat sketch to illustrate this. Take a dice and put all the options on each side and roll it for every decision (no matter how menial).
- Fidgeting. Uncontrollably. Try not tapping your bouncing a part of your body.
- When you get to your favourite place and not be hungry.
- When you get to the tacos place, “I want dim sum.” A Chinese restaurant later, “I want a burger.”
- Anything shiny or colourful off the corner of your eye will result in turning of a head.
- My brain persuades me to sleep.
- Going to kid stores. As an adult. And you don’t have a child.
- The girl across from you is gorgeous and should go say hi but your burger is delicious.
- Reading a novel. After 1 hour, you find yourself finishing the first paragraph and spent the last hour on YouTube.
- Hopping on YouTube at 9 PM and going to bed at 5 AM.
- 4PM is your morning.
- “You come off as strong” is a universal phrase when dating.
- Being sick of taking your medication but you can’t risk having any “negative” symptoms. Can’t be sad or impulsive or anything that may be seen as abnormal.
I might have put this lightly but this is my insight to what I have, I’ve seen others demonstrate the same symptoms and are definitely ADHD but choose not to do anything. Even then, these people can sometimes point the finger right back and call you crazy. Mental health as a whole is a large pool of undiscovered solutions. In a way, mental health is like a frozen lake. Staring past the ice sheet you see the darkness. For me, I’m the darkness staring up to the beautiful sky.